Me and My Big Ideas

Two weeks ago I had this grand idea in the middle of the night (when all the "grandest" of ideas come about, generally because one is sleep-deprived and mildly hallucinating). My idea was to create a blog, a place called home; a place where I would be able to carry out all the thoughful, insightful and generally mind-blowing samples of journalism I could muster. I had LOADS of stuff I wanted to weigh in on, oh yes. Flashes of genius in the middle of the night always produce such lovely fruit. Problem is, in the light of day, I had to sit down and compose these flashes into a single focus and put pen to paper (or fingers to keyboard).

Turns out I'm not such a fucking genius, and I'm a bit stuck. I want this blog to bear fruit, but what kind? I briefly considered the topic of internet porn after dumpster diving into my junk mail - I truly had no idea how many people were into beastiality and housewife sluts. A disturbing trend, to say the least. But is this the subject that I want to open with? Other than some sporadic facebook-ing, this blog is my first jump into the "World-Wide-Net", which is a territory so foriegn to me. I decide this is not how I want to say "hello", but table it for a later date.

What then? Religion, politics? Maybe one of my short stories, ones that I loosely term as "fiction" but are honestly pieces of my life with the names changes to protect the innocent.... Fiction is a probable outlet here, but again, not yet. I'm saving that for later when I actually have some readers.

There are always things to talk about; I know I turn on my TV and see endless gripings about this and that. And in my general day-to-day interactions with the public people talk a lot - incessantly! However I've noticed that people (myself included) seem to talk a lot without saying much. This sort of talk is pretty cheap, and it's hard to find folks that want to relax and listen respectfully to one another - speaking when they have something that's actually relevant to add. Mostly, folks are just waiting to speak, and not really listening to the other person at all. This trend in our way of relating produces lots of gossipy snippets, excitedly babbled and quickly forgotten. So I still need to pull some ideas...some inspiration. What is it that truly interests people?

Mostly people seem interested in the state of Rhianna's domestic affairs, a subject matter that hits home for me (pun intended), yet the public facination with her story is almost as surreal as the fact that Jay-Z is asking Ms. Tina Turner to counsel her. When my ex stalked me and pummeled my face in (among other things), it was hard just to get the Malden police to serve up a restraining order, never mind contacting a rock-star-turned-buddhist to mentor me. As for the other big news story - the recession and all the financial deviants involved - well this makes me pretty fired up! I mean, by all accounts there are plenty of us who could count ourselves as literal criminals, and life and limb would be (and has been in some of our cases - you know who you are!) threatened to the fullest extent of the law. Yet one looks at these white-collar criminals and the million dollar bonuses they recieve and feels powerless. We scratch our heads wondering what to do? Somebody I knew years ago broke into a residential home in search of cash and there were no lingering questions in that case as to how to best proceed - why is justice in the financial world any different?

Sadly, although I read the Wall Street Journal religiously every day, I have no answers on this topic either. Or maybe I do, but I am terrified of exposing myself as inept and incredibly stupid because my understanding of the specifics lack substance. I'd have to go back to Bentley College and finish that degree in Accounting and International Finance I started and lord knows there is a reason why I dropped that course of study like a bad habit. Swimming in that vast sea of information and politics is more than I care to take on.

So I leave it up to you, dear readers. Or reader (thanks, Dad for signing on). What do you want to hear me mouth off on? I'm taking suggestions, and I am looking forward to writing about something, someday. Throwing the ball into your court seems to be the safest thing I can do here, since it ensures that at least somebody will like what I wrote - or feign some interest. After all, rejection sucks, and though I'm no stranger to it I would prefer to have some healthy admiraton for a change...humor me?

Be Well - Do Good
Jennifer Psallidas